Transition

I saw a friend post a blog and thought maybe this would help me. I used to do this on MySpace and then stopped. I was layed off back in February. So it is coming up on 6 months that I have been out of work. This is new to me. I have been working since I was around 15, and have not stopped since, other then having my children and taking maternity leave. I had mixed feelings about not working. I mean I gave 7 years of my life to this job and they were throwing me away like I meant nothing. That pushed me into going to school full-time. I am currently pursuing an Associate Degree in Nursing. I have been able to spend more time with my kids, which is wonderful and crazy all at once. I thought when I was layed off I would have all the free time in the world. Reality is, my yard looks worse then it did when I was working full-time and I spend time with my kids in between studying. Now You can look at me like Im mean when I say some of my thoughts, but I guarantee there are people out there that wont admit they agree with me. I was a full-time working mom since before myt kids were born. So I missed a few things, which I regret. Now that I am home.... I love my kids with all my heart but sometimes I wish I could lock myself in a padded sound proof room and just sit there. There are days when it is wonderful.. We play outside, we go for a walk, eat lunch, take naps.. an all around wonderful day. Then there are days where Cassie throws a fit because I wont let her change her outfit for the 4th time, Joey is mad because I apparently did not do something the exact way he wanted me to do it, they do not take naps, and by the end of the day all I can think about is "Is it bed time yet?" . I of course would not change anything and love my kids even with all their little quirks. All I am saying is, it is a definite adjustment to go from a full-time working mom to a full-time student/stay at home mom. This may be boring to many people but I think this may help me vent and share as I go through a bumpy road in my life.