I am realizing that there are certain things that need to change in my life. My focus on the path ahead has strayed and I need to get back on the right one. Its not like I took the path to the left instead of the path to the right. I have just wandered off the right path a little. January brings the new year and the resolutions that come along with new years. I do not necessarily believe in making resolutions. Mainly because I usually do not keep them. Why make them if I can not keep them? Instead what I did was make a few decisions before the new year. It may sound stupid, but it was my way of making a change without the pressure and let down of a resolution on New Years Day. So here are a few of the choices I have made...
I am going to focus on my nursing degree and school more. I have been in college for just over a year now. I am up to 38 credits. While yes I have done pretty good in my courses so far(my GPA is 3.74), I still need to focus more. I was settling for my Associates degree but now I am looking into getting a Bbaccalaureate degree in nursing now. If I am going to do this, I suppose I should just go for the gold! I am looking forward to starting this semester. Learning things that will directly apply to my future career is what I am looking forward to the most. Having my application into the nursing program felt exhilarating to me! I feel like it is more official now. Now to wait for the letter letting me know when I get to join the program.
I am going to focus on my family more. While yes it is fun to go out to the bar every so often, get my drink on, hang with friends. My family needs to come first more often. Now this is not a choice to quit drinking altogether. It is not a choice to never go out or hang with friends. Its a choice to spend more quality time with my family. I started getting out of hand for a while last year. Going out, having people over and drinking 4-5 times a week. We cant afford that anymore anyway. And I feel it is just time to slow the pace down a bit. Now with that all said, I am a stay at home mother who goes to college full time, OF COURSE I will need some time to be alone or out. A night to have a few glasses of wine. But I do not need to be a wino. Just saying.
I am going to be better about cooking meals and saving money. Cutting coupons on sundays, shopping where the deals are(if they are worth it) and saving on gas hopefully by shopping at Giant Eagle. I have been pretty good about cooking lately. I just have to keep at it.
I never expected life to be easy after losing my job. I just think I didnt realize quite how rough it would actually be. I know we will survive, but to survive a few things need to change and the above choices will help us survive. It is coming up on a year since I lost my job. Yes we are further in debt, but we are surviving. Yes I have wanted to shoot myself, but I am still alive. Losing my job and the events of last year have just made me realize "It is a New Year and it is time for New Choices".
